exim -bp | awk '{if ($3!="") {print "newMessage"; system("exim -Mvb " $3) } }' | awk 'BEGIN{RS="newMessage"} !/different string|I do not want|to include inside|mails/{print $0}' | less
So I ignore mails containing certain words and remain only with those strange mails.
I discovered I had sent no spam, but instead I had received undeliverable mail which mas kept frozen.